Sleep is not my forté.
I love it and could lay in bed all day but I rarely do it. I wouldn’t say I’m an insomniac because I could easily fall asleep if I wanted to. The “problem” is though, that I usually stay up until 1am-3am depending on my motivation. This becomes upsetting after only a few hours of sleep considering my full night’s sleep is usually about 10 hours.
I feel like my days are my meditation. I kind of drift along and do the routine which is pretty unexciting and quiet. The night seems to be when my brain turns on. The second I climb (Really, climb. My bed is on risers.) into bed it’s like OKAY! WHAT NEEDS TO BE DONE?
What is even more interesting to me though, besides my bizarre sleeping habits, is my bizarre waking habits.
I’ve been researching more on the “hypnopompic state” and unfortunately been coming up pretty dry. This state is that lucidity between the sleep state and the wake state. The little place where you can still see your dreams but you can also hear your mom vacuuming outside your door. You might even be familiar with the babbling that comes in this state. When you’re at a sleep over and your friend wakes up and says something like “give the cat his maple syrup” then rolls back over like a scary sleep zombie.
I am very aware of this state. I get a lot of information from it. When I’m depressed or unhappy, I’ve found that I linger a little longer in this inbetweeness and have a inner monologue about what I’m really experiencing and feeling. Not like a day time talk show either. I mean real, ego removed, assessments of my life. I’ve even been hanging out there and heard very specific phrases, only to wake up and see those exact sentences waiting inside a text from my friend.
Has anyone experienced anything similar? Any true insomniacs or even night owls who have stories to share? Comment!
Okay I love you I’m actually tired for once 143 bye